Dear Blessed,
At some point in the early years of sobriety, I realized that given the same circumstances, conditioning, etc., I would be capable of committing any of the heinous acts that others had committed (whether against me personally or otherwise). , and I judged so harshly. When I realized this, I had a sudden feeling of being able to give to the world. At the time, that was too big for me and it took a few years for the integration of my realization to produce the perceived result. The forgiveness process began with family, friends and myself.
While contemplating the idea of allowing everyone to be as they are with nothing I needed to change, I began to see Life itself as the teacher. I could see life’s experiences leading us all to the next perfect place we needed to be, even if it didn’t make immediate sense to me. It became so clear to me that Life knows where it wants to go, all I need to do is let go and follow it.
I considered that my judgment of others and the great desire that they change, could be similar to judging a baby for wetting its diaper. The baby learns as he grows through his wet experiences that dry feels better and that there is another way. Just because a person’s way of operating isn’t my preference, doesn’t mean he isn’t in the perfect place at the perfect time in life, leading to his next perfect expression. At this point I recognized that there was really nothing to forgive.
The life of each person is a power of example. As I express my way of being, everyone around me is affected in some way (and vice versa), and we are all working together like cogs in a wheel or a tuned engine. Shining the light of awareness into all corners of my perceived reality was really the key to this insight.
We change when it is time to change and not a moment before. Life leads us to our next realization through the situations of life. Life leads us to heal old wounds and to reprogram ourselves down to the cellular level. Every day 50 to 70 billion cells die due to apoptosis, which means that every day 50 to 70 billion new cells are produced through cell division. At the end of a year, that’s the equivalent of our total body weight. What a magical way life has of bringing in new energy and a new you to dance to… wow!
We are changing whether we like it or not. As she expresses this new self daily, she sees if she can hold on to the loving, tender love she would give an innocent baby. We are all infants and Infinites here doing exactly what we came here to do, there is no mistake. What a way to liberate the world and yourself.
Much love and blessings to you,
shellee
“I wonder if they changed me in the night. Let me think. Was I the same when I woke up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I’m not the same, the next question is ‘Who in the world am I?’ Ah, that’s the big puzzle!” ~Caterpillar (Alice in Wonderland)